Memory and Medusa
Thursday, January 6, 2011
As writers, we live in our memories. From the outside, we often appear to be doing nothing at all, staring into the void, seemingly oblivious to the outside world -- and, in a sense, we are. We are absent, in the same way that an aborigine, on his walkabout, is absent from his community. We leave for much the same reason as our hypothetical aborigine, for the internal journeys we take are how we create ourselves and, in turn, the writing that is us.
There's a famous passage in Moby Dick, called "The Try Works," where Melville describes the furnaces, on the Pequod's deck, where whale blubber is rendered. At a certain point in the process, there's no need to consume precious wood to keep the fires going -- the whale's bones themselves become the fuel used to extract the desired whale oil. At that moment, Melville chooses to quote John Webster, a playwright who was one of Shakespeare's contemporaries. He wrote, "Like diamonds, we are cut with our own dust."
That is what we do with memories -- whether they are our own, those of our friends, or from past readings. The dust we use to cut and polish ourselves, and our writing, is no more than ourselves, the stuff we've stored away in our brains. In our internal try works, we turn our memories over, again and again, slowly stewing them 'til they have reduced themselves to pure oil.
However, a curious thing happens to the memories themselves in the rendering. Like Melville's blubber, they cease to exist once the oil has been extracted. Memories remain alive because every time we revisit them we add tiny bits of experience we've accumulated since our last visit. A memory exists, as a memory, specifically because it is malleable, transforming itself along with us. Once it has been written down, it is no longer our memory -- it is now writing: static, unchanging, even if not literally carved-in-stone.
Like the gorgon, we lithify memories with our stare.
As writers, we feel a twinge of remorse at the loss of our memories, as they are no longer the vibrant living things that attracted us to them in the first place. Ironically, the memories we capture in our writing -- no longer alive for us -- can now become part of the living memory of our readers, where it is once again free to transmute itself endlessly.
2 Comments:
Thanks for stopping by my site. As I was reading your post on memories, I was thinking of a post I did in memory of my mother-in-law, who died last year of Alzheimer's. It was a culinary remembrance, so I talked about how we could still bond through cooking together, though it was terribly sad to watch all her lovely recipes fade away. But I "captured" one, a favorite family cookie by putting it in print.
I have also written culinary remembrances, Nancy -- for my father, in the story "Hot Wings," and for his father, in the story "Gatherin’ Mesquite."
Both stories can be found using the search box on this site.
There are many other, less specific culinary remembrances on the site, both those two were written, like yours, to preserve something of family members who are no longer around.
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